It was only 8 months

It was only 8 months but the ending hurts more than I could have imagined. The sense of loss, the desire to make it work, everything.

I have a hard time admitting we were incompatible. I saw a forever future in us. I thought we would always be the couple that comes out stronger. I thought we would be the couple that doesn’t give up.

I had my flaws and it gave him pain. He had his limits and it hurt. I thought we both saw each others efforts and it made us love each other more but maybe it was just me. I thought everything was fixable and he would be the one who saw my worth and treated it preciously.

I’m stupid. Let myself give up so much for a man who was the same as the rest, giving up suddenly and making choices alone without giving me the decency of knowing or a chance to work it out.

Stupid enough to still struggle but can’t even begin to hate or be angry.

Maybe he saw all my flaws as red flags instead of hurt and areas he wanted to work with me through like he said.