feeling really stuck in emotions

A month and a half maybe of breakup and a month of no contact. Some days I’m good, some days I’m just stuck in all these emotions.

Moving on and waiting at the same time for him to change his mind and want to make this right. Focusing on me and yet not able to at all. Anyone else relate? I feel like I’m just like stuck in this emotional whirlwind 🥲

I wish it could get better, felt like it was easier during other breakups for me to just not look back and move on.