Feeling lost

My miscarriage was 2 months ago, and I'm still feeling lost and disconnected from everything even my husband, there are times when I asked him if I'm enough for him among other questions, he says I'm enough and that he loves me but apart of me feels like he's annoyed with me a little, tmi: I started having my normal cycle again last month which was a bit of a shock since my doctor said that it would take 3 months for my body to go back to normal, and since that happened I've started hating myself for the life that I could have right now, I told my husband that I hate myself and my body for it and that I'm frustrated that I haven't gotten pregnant again, then the regular cramping started which didn't help at all cuz its a constant reminder of what I went through when I lost our baby. I keep try to remind myself it's not my fault but my depression keeps poking at me saying that it is my fault that something is wrong with me and that I should hate myself and my body for everything.

So felt like I needed to rant about everything that's going through my mind. Sorry if I was bothering not anticipating any replys.