Why???

Why was I cursed with being trans, why are we demonized by people over and over, why are we thrown out like we aren’t humans. Why was I born like this???? I don’t want this, I wish the transphobes were right and we had a choice because I would choose not to be trans if that were the case. I hate living so much, my life was over the day I was born. I’m already 18 my stupid state bans HRT and puberty blockers until you are 19 years old. What even is the point anymore? I wish every cis person could go through this shit for a month, maybe the world would be a better place then